Next To You

Here I am beside you
I know you are depressed
I will try to help too
But my words are always missed
We hardly ever speak
And my attempts are meak
Social anxiety stopping me from reaching out to you

I wish I could help so bad
But you have others now
However I'm happy if you're glad
Without me somehow
Though I'm losing purpose
Feel like I belong in a circus
I'm just a freak who doesn't belong

I am next to you
My heart stopped a short time ago
For I am a ghost who never knew
That we would end like so
You don't feel love but I love you
As a friend I won't forget ever
Sadly our illnesses stick like glue
And ruin our relationship together

I still think you like me
Though doubts I have also
You're so far across the sea
And I may never get to go
There's no one else like you
Oh what do I do
How have we drifted so far apart

I am next to you
My heart stopped a short time ago
For I am a ghost who never knew
That we would end like so
You don't feel love but I love you
As a friend I won't forget ever
Sadly our illnesses stick like glue
And ruin our relationship together